Less Than 3 Weeks To Go
I've trained religiously, fueled properly, and tried multiple different shoes/running belts/nutritional supplements. But, I'm starting to doubt everything.
I notice every slight foot cramp or minor ache. I wake up in the middle of the night sweating from panic; what if I can't even finish a full marathon? Maybe I should downgrade to the half and aim for a more attainable PR.
Nothing about this training has been easy. I've done it, yes. But I remember last time I trained for a marathon, some days felt effortless. I'd breeze through 8 miles and consider doing 10 or 12. This time nearly every run has been a challenge. The closest feeling I've had to 'effortless' was Ragnar - and not because it was easy (anything but). But adrenaline and euphoria and the team mentality numbed the pain I felt while running. I'm so tired some days it's almost impossible to drag myself out the door for even a 5 mile run. I do it, which is great, but it is not easy. It sucks.
Now I'm questioning everything. I should have picked a harder training plan. I should have been properly fitted for running shoes. I should have ran a practice half marathon this month. Now I will begin cutting back the miles; the time to prepare has passed.
Let it go...
My times are slower than when I trained for Richmond 3 years ago. 3 years ago I crossed the finish line at 4:08:53. Not a bad time, especially for a first marathon. I have been so caught up on taking 10 minutes off of that time that it's made my training less than enjoyable; actually I've felt pretty miserable. Now I wonder if I could even come close to running that time again.
| 1870 | INDIA JOHNSON | 5076 | 54:26 | 1:55:14 | 3:00:25 | 4:08:53 |
I ran 20 miles in hurricane force winds last Saturday. I was so angry I couldn't gain my usual speed. My legs hurt, my lungs hurt, and it really wasn't a good run. I've also felt sick ever since... which is just great. All I can think about is how my goal is slipping away, and how I may never run a sub 4 hour marathon. And how bad I really want to. It's not all it's about, but it's a big part.
Everyone has doubts, but mine this time around are really messing with my head. Just one of the downsides that come with racing...
Hoping I can shake these feelings soon and get pumped for Richmond again. Tapering is the worst part of training.




